released 04 July 1995
Written and produced Jason Sevanick and Chris Sevanick it was not really actually mastered in that no compression nor limiting nor eq was done.

PRODIGY
(J. Sevanick)

I just feel like thinking today
I don't wanna talk too much
It's hard to explain

Sometimes I am a machine, sometimes I am a man
Sometimes I'm just a little wave in a big, chaotic plan

Time for the self, time for the strength
All sense aside what is belief
Time for the self, time for the strength
It won't decay, it's a prodigy

Sometimes I am a machine, sometimes I am a man
Sometimes I know just who I am
Sometimes I control, sometimes I'm in shreds
Sometimes I know, but I'm wrong again

ABOUT TO BREAK
(J. Sevanick)

Full of emotions I've never had...
I don't feel angry I just don't feel at all
I could manipulate
I could twist
I could trick you
And you let me get away with it
All these experiences I've had
Do they only exist in my mind?
Do they reveal? Do they conceal?
There's no time left to heal
It seems we're near the end
It seems we're near the end
It seems...

Can I see you again?
I'm afraid we're so near the end

It doesn't matter who's right or wrong
There's no difference between give and take
I saw the world about to explode
And I, myself, was about to break

VISION
(J. Sevanick, Mike Ewall)

No one told us, we were too young
To defend ourselves
All those visions
In several years
Create the hope, create the fear
That we might not "succeed"
We might not fit in
We think we're free
We're just the visions
That made us who we are

Our future held in fractured hands
A fairy tale of failing plans
Meaning to see, can't see a meaning
Trip the gears in search of feelings

I can't show you the world,
but I can show you mine

REGRETS
(J. Sevanick, Josh Werner)

I am so young, I am so wild
I'll fight today
Tomorrow's just a step away
I'll raise my voice, I'll scream at the sky
We all want freed, we all need to die

Don't throw it away

When you look back, what do you want to see?
Blindfolded and on your knees
You can't give up so easily
Don't ever give up, fuck the machine

THE SILENCE
(J. Sevanick, Mike Ewall)

You said everything is OK
Yet everything has me so afraid
Living is a bent memory
Fading in time increasingly
As we drink and drive and die
And kiss and cry, and dance and play
And rust away
Tears stay on the inside - alone
Millions so alone
Tears stay on the inside - alone
Tears can't be heard anymore

OPEN UP
(J. Sevanick)

And you smile
And you look right at me
Like you've never seen me before
And you watch me fall
I turn my thoughts to you
I sink and I twitch
I've tried to open up
Why do we act…
Why do we act like this?
Like this
Like this

DAYS OF BREAD AND CIRCUS
(J. Sevanick)

We're moving so fast, I don't want to stop
I was always going to change the world
I've always cared a lot
I used to think, but now I don't
I used to feel, but now I won't

There's so much shit coming straight for me
I'll let it hit if it has a need
Tomorrow again, a new best friend
Tomorrow again will take me away

I can't ponder thoughts
I just wanna breathe
I just wanna drift off
Now's not the time for analysis
I just wanna sit back, I just wanna exist

And it will happen again and again

REMNANT
(J. Sevanick)

I looked at you but you turned away
I have to put up with you
And you have to put up with me
I feel so wired but I'll be OK… for now

'cause you
Made me forget who I was today
And I
I still blame myself
'cause you
I still feel you all over me
And I am someone else

You have this thing, you have control
And I'm slipping further

THE STRONGER
(J. Sevanick)

Here have some sex, here have a drink
We're so alive, we're so distinct
I've lost some friends, I've lost some hope
We've lost ourselves, but still we cope

We've lost our faith in society
Nothing is what it seems
But through all this and still we live
The pillars will hold until the stronger give

Are we above? Are we conscious yet?
We cannot love what we can't affect
Fall from the sky into the sea
Stand at the bottom and grow with me

I'm getting stronger, I'm still alive

DESERT WIND
(J. Sevanick)

Trapped within these walls
This thick, layered prison called the skin
I never asked to be this man
Or maybe I did
Or maybe I missed my only chance to be…
It seems I'll never know
Just what I could have been
Or maybe I choose
To not even try, I'm born to lose
My thoughts, my thoughts, my fucking thoughts
Go floating in the air
My feet won't take me anywhere
I think I lost my head somewhere along the way
Maybe the wind could make me spin
Maybe it's time to start all over again
Maybe the wind could make me spin
Maybe it’s time to start all over again